Lack of Trust

What does someone look like who doesn't trust the Lord. Well, i think i am a pretty good picture of that right now. Chris will find out in April if his job is secure or not. My contract ends March 31st, and its unknown whether it will be renewed (although i am only working 5 hours a week, every little bit helps). We are cutting back in every way we can. Especially in my frivolous spending.  I keep looking around and seeing friends with huge houses, great dreams, etc. I feel trapped. I feel like God has forgotten us and doesn't want to allow us to have a home. We went to view a house yesterday, bad idea. It left me feeling hopeless. when will that ever be for us. Word to the wise, don't ever view a house you cant ever afford!  well, that's how im feeling today...and im trying to trust that God has everything in His hands!