Train up a child in the way he should go,

and when he is old he will not depart from it

proverbs 22:6

I am deeply moved by these scriptures, as I sat praying for Olivia this morning. Last night she did not sleep well, and had a rough day yesterday. I was trying to put on Mary Poppins for her in the afternoon, but for some reason the apple tv wasn't working.  I had to go to the main computer to try and set it up, but while I was doing that, Beauty and the Beast accidentally turned on. It just happened to be on the part where the beast kills Gastov. Olivia started screaming her head off and before I realised what had happened, she saw a bit of it. Now, I dont know if that is why she didn't sleep last night, or that the adjustment to nursery has been hard. But whatever it is, I am concerned. When I dropped her off at nursery this morning, she looked sad. She wasn't the happy, responsive little girl I thought we had. It is almost as if her spirit has been broken. At 3, i dont believe any huge damage has been done. But I do believe it is something I need to be very aware of. Are we disciplining her correctly, are we training her in the way of the Lord? Are we loving her the way we should. All these are questions that are running through my mind right now. I want her to know God. Not just a sunday morning kinda way. But in a deep and intimate type of way. I want her to know that Jesus is real, and that He loves her. I want her to have wings, to fly above this hurtful world.  As I work on my celebrate recovery inventory, and look at my past hurts that have shaped who I am, i am increasingly aware of the hurts Olivia can be developing. Her fear of the hospital is one of them. I pray that God will help lead us as parents.