Going through every emotion

I am literally going through every emotion right  now.  We received our new address for our apartment when we arrive in Franklin…well its actually in Brentwood. We have decided to sell the car by the 14^th of July, which means we need to clean it up this weekend and put it up for sale.  We had another moving company come to give a quote…1385 this time (Kelleys removals in Newcastle).  Pickfords, the first company who quoted in the 2200, has said they will come Friday morning for a re-quote.  Either way, all this stuff will be picked up next week. 

All this is causing me to go on a rollercoaster of emotions.  One minute I am excited, one minute I am sad, one minute I want to keep my dining table because of all the memories made with it, the next I want a new one. I cant make any decisions! I look forward to Friday, as my good friend Steph is going to come over and help me go through everything once again.  Then Sunday we, along with my other good friend Jess (who is going through a big moving process as well to Scotland with her husband and two boys), are all going to a car boot sale in Whitley Bay.  I’m hoping to make a little cash so that I can put it towards all the stuff we need to re-buy. 

Now for the really sad part… we cant take all the girls toys.  I don't know who’s more sad about this, them, or me, who is going to have to explain to my 3 year old where her goofy soft toy is.  It is going to be way too expensive to send everything.  So, I have come up with a plan. If I can make 699$ in the next couple of weeks through selling different things, I’m going to buy the girls the pottery barn kitchen.  It is every little girls dream kitchen (and every mummy’s dream too).  It is super pricey, but what is funny, it is cheaper to buy that brand new kitchen, than to bring all their existing toys!  They already have a super cute kitchen, but again, it is going to cost more than the value of the kitchen to ship! So we shall see. I have our leather sofas to sell, our bed, a wardrobe, a dining table, and various bits and bobs.  My hope is that they both get so excited over the new amazing kitchen that they don't notice the missing stuff!

Like I said this is an emotional time.  I am trying to be very sensitive to Olivias needs. Her tantrums are out of control and we are trying our hardest to help her through this process and not involve her in rather stressful conversations (such as car insurance quotes). I too am sad about leaving behind my security net... my friends, my church, my support network.  I was overwhelmed with a lonely feeling last night just thinking about it.  It took us so long to make good friends...the kind you can call on in the middle of the night if you need someone to watch your kids. I know God will provide new friends, a new support network... but this will all take time.