The Problem with Grey Gables

There is a certain problem with Grey Gables. I don't want to share it with you all at this moment, because its embarrassing.  It makes me come across as ungrateful.  Its as if someone has given me the most perfect gift…and instead of saying thank you… I look at it, and then start saying how much I don't like it because of a certain quirk.

I have struggled with this issue since we purchased Grey Gables.  I didn't notice it before we closed on the house.  It was only afterwards that it bothered me.  It was then that I became obsessed with the issue.  I have wanted to sell the house, Ive complained to others, Ive cried about it… and then I told my group at CR (Celebrate Recovery).

         Interjecting a little CR plug here:  I have been attending CR for a few years now.  I began going while in England, in hopes of helping others.  I soon realised how much I needed the program, and have been blessed ever since. I have only completed all the steps once, and am hopeful to join a new step study in March.  To others, my issues may seem trivial… Im not struggling with a huge issue others associate with a recovery group.  I just am dealing with issues a lot of moms deal with, and I find CR helps me to work through those things, and to be the best wife and mother I can possibly be.

Ok, back to what I was saying.  I shared my issue with Grey Gables with my CR group and felt embarrassed as the words came out of my mouth.  It was like a big flashlight was turned on in a dark room, and the issues seemed so small.  But, I do still struggle with it.

So, what is a girl to do?  I know there are so many of you out there who have struggled with discontentment and disalusionment with something that should be so perfect.  Whether its your marriage, being a mom, homeschooling, or in my case, my house, whatever it is, its what pulls you to the Lord.  For me, this issue brings me to my knees. I have to constantly commit it to the Lord. I have to constantly ask Him to help me…to give me joy, and to practice an attitude of gratitude! To be thankful for what He has given me, for the place He has put me in.  There is nothing perfect in this world… perfection is waiting for us in heaven!

So, I want to encourage myself, and those of you who are reading this and may be struggling with something you can't really change… if it wasn't this issue, it would be something else.  Satan wants nothing more than for us to not have joy and be discontent.  I don't know about you, but I want to be joyful…and be the gal who is thankful for EVERYTHING the Lord has given to me… even if it has a quirk!

To end, I am leaving you with a  picture of my darling donkey Bobbi and my daughter Fae… they truly do leave a smile on my face!  And without Grey Gables, this adorable picture wouldn't have been possible.  Thank you Lord for the blessings of happy memories you have given my family on our farm!