Unknown

I sit here in the unknown.  Unknown as to what is happening with the farm.  There may be another offer.... they may want to pull out...the list goes on and on. It is completely in the Lords hands because there is nothing we can do.  No amount of calling our agent, or crying or wishing or hoping will change a thing.  Its up to God.  I have to remind myself over and over, He is in control!  He could give this house to us if He wanted.  He can open and close doors, and so it is up to Him.  Yesterday was a rough day. I ended up spilling my heart, and over sharing a bit, to our realtor, while the kids were screaming all around me (not a good idea!).  Anyways, it didn't help one bit.  Today at MOPS, I was reminded once again of Gods power.  Of His timing, of His plans for our lives.  One day I will look back at this and see Gods hand in it all.  Im thankful I have a mighty God.



I went to costco after Mops to pick up a few things and ran into a dear friend who is grieving a loss.  It was a quick reminder that my problem is trivial.  There is so much I have to be thankful for.  So much that God has blessed me with .  I will trust you Lord.  Then, Olivia came up to me this afternoon and said "we dont need a farm mom. We can pretend this is a farm, with cows.  Dont be sad".  And she touched my hand.  Thank you Lord for her encouragement.  We dont need a house to be content, to have fun, to make a home.  This is a 'value' that the Lord is continually asking me to give to Him.  Having a house, a yard, more space, are not things that are bad... but its when you cannot be content without them....when you covet what others have...when your satisfaction is not found in what the Lord has given you... Thats when things aren't right.  Thats when a readjustment needs to happen.  My joy is in the Lord... my future home is in heaven... it is not here.  I need to remember that!  Moving is hard, on so many levels.  And I truly believe, like many things in life, it is like an onion.  it is processed layer after layer.  I am so thankful for the friendships the Lord is bringing into my life.  We are blessed!



I wanted to share the lyrics of a song that I heard this morning.  It has reached me right where I am at....in the midst of the unknown.  This entire move, taking a leap of faith, and just trusting God. This is my anthem!

                                                       "Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)"

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
[x6]

I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine